The intensity is so removed from reality, the loss of control so absurd, I feel it in my bones: the unshakeable feeling that this is the night I will die, here, on a toilet floor miles from home.
An epidemic that affects 1 in 10 women of reproductive age – and most of us do not even know how to pronounce its name.
Despite the pain and suffering, this illness has made me a better feminist, a better ally, a better human. It has been a gift as well as a burden.
Painful periods
Pain on ovulation
Pain during internal examinations
Pain during or after sex
Pelvic/abdominal pain
Heavy periods, with or without clots
Prolonged bleeding
“Spotting” or bleeding between periods
Irregular periods
Loss of “old” or dark blood at the start of a period
Painful bowel movements
Bleeding from the bowel
Symptoms of Irritable Bowel Syndrome (diarrhoea, constipation, bloating – particularly during your period)
Pain when passing urine
Pain before or after passing urine or opening your bowel
Fatigue
Depression
Back pain
Leg pain
The support of other women
The support of Endometriosis UK
The Mirena IUD
Beautiful, soulful nurses
The hospital tea-trolley lady
Patient junior doctors
CBT
Knowing Thy Enemy
Hot water bottles and scorching baths
Being persistent and sure
Keeping a gratitude journal
Ru Paul reruns
Audre Lorde quotes
Hypnosis videos
Calling home more
Creating more
Moving more
Loving more