"You’re really putting yourself out there. You might be targeted." It’s different when my mom says it. I shrug off the hesitation and initial fear, knowing that I have so many strong women, strong statistics, and strong opinions behind me. I take into account the concerns, and I continue on in my effort to keep guns off college campuses. But when the activists on the other side of the issue use that same warning to justify a sick, racist, sexist, disrespectful homemade PSA against common-sense gun laws, it's not just not right. It's unconscionable. Two weeks ago, a man named Brett Sanders posted to YouTube a graphic "short film" depicting the murder of a woman involved in the Cocks Not Glocks protest of Texas' new campus carry law. The deplorable video had one message, in my view: She’s putting herself out there as a target. Go get her. The "she" in the video, many people believe, was based on me. As leaders of a major anti-gun protest that made international headlines, my co-organizers and I are used to the attacks. We are used to the baseless threats of rape and murder. We have been told that we should get lined up and shot. We have been called "sluts" and "whores" ad nauseam. Even our families have been targeted.
I felt a burning in the pit of my stomach when I first saw the video.
The hair stood up on the back of my neck, and I felt an immense weight bear down on me. I felt horrified, disgusted, and, most of all, livid.
The deplorable video had one message, in my view: She’s putting herself out there as a target. Go get her.
Once I got past the shock and disgust of seeing my murder on YouTube and my eulogy on Facebook, I could see the video for what it was: useless.
Editor's Note: Refinery29 reached out to Sanders for comment. He reiterated that he had not heard of Lopez before making the video and said his "film serves more as a warning to those who believe disarming good people would accomplish anything positive." "The criminal threat is real, and advertising your own defenselessness is a dangerous proposition," he added. "Although their ideas are dangerous, I'm perfectly happy letting them live their lives however they see fit. That is until you conspire against my right of self preservation, then I will fight back and I will win."